lily of the valley

Dec 21 2024 I got used to being alone - a lot more then before the Covid. I bought a lot of journals ( notebooks ) so I would have something to write in if they  close down the stores again. Seeing no humans outside unless they have a purpose like shopping or to cheek up  on other people. I saw wildlife like coyotes, a cougar, some hawks an eagle, and wild ferrets. What did I miss The church bells, calling people to church on Sundays and the ringing of the bells on Wednesdays, the day the bell ringers practice. The church which housed the  bells was on the same street that I lived on. The pigeons became more vocal and greeted people as they came to the large church in which I was living in that got changed in to apartments. The sounds of children waiting for the school bus in the mornings and being dropped off in the afternoon was absent as well as the sound of cars being driven by people going to  work.  These are the things that changed while I was having to s...

 Where did they come from, what distance shore did they watch the dawn brake. What made them leave the only way of life they know to began again. what distasters did they brave an howling wind and unforgiving rain. With backs bent to the plough they toiled in that strange new land. with the cries of the wolves as their lullaby.

  Today we buried Grand mother. She was my Mother's mom. I feel mixed up right now. I feel sad about losing Grandma and I feel sad for Mom, her father had died a few years ago and she was an only child, their was no one to share this heavy burden with. The bank and the lawyer were good and kind about all the things that needed to be looked after. We have many miles back to our home. It has been a long day of driving and disconnectedness.